The Supernatural begs questions and the questions deepen our faith and dependence, rather than seperate us from Him. The best questions come after and from facing the evidence and accepting it.
I am forgiven
When I looked at is as normal it didn't seem sinful. And now coming to knowing it's all Him and seeing the light of that truth....it hurts bad and I didn't want to see it, to hurt like that..I wanted to beat myself up more than simply accept His love and forgiveness....like a child who has disappointed their parents and doesn't know how to just BE SORRY.....if I beat myself up enough I stay in a darkness that never lets His light shine in, doesn't let my Mommy's and Daddy's disappointment and forgiveness change my behavior, I just stay feeling bad and ashamed and alone..
Accepting His forgiveness for that, the hurt is painfully good, He sent His son Jesus to die for that in me, that hurts and yet Wow, He loves us that much........and i hope it is searing my heart into seeing the Supernaturalness of His sacrifice and love forgiveness more and more everyday....keeps all of us absolutely drenched w/ His love.
I hope you guys wrestle with this in your lives and that as you lose you FEEL His love. i love you all so much
27-29John answered, "It's not possible for a person to succeed—I'm talking about eternal success—without heaven's help. You yourselves were there when I made it public that I was not the Messiah but simply the one sent ahead of him to get things ready. The one who gets the bride is, by definition, the bridegroom. And the bridegroom's friend, his 'best man'—that's me—in place at his side where he can hear every word, is genuinely happy. How could he be jealous when he knows that the wedding is finished and the marriage is off to a good start?
29-30"That's why my cup is running over. This is the assigned moment for him to move into the center, while I slip off to the sidelines.
31-33"The One who comes from above is head and shoulders over other messengers from God. The earthborn is earthbound and speaks earth language; the heavenborn is in a league of his own. He sets out the evidence of what he saw and heard in heaven. No one wants to deal with these facts. But anyone who examines this evidence will come to stake his life on this: that God himself is the truth.
34-36"The One that God sent speaks God's words. And don't think he rations out the Spirit in bits and pieces. The Father loves the Son extravagantly. He turned everything over to him so he could give it away—a lavish distribution of gifts. That is why whoever accepts and trusts the Son gets in on everything, life complete and forever! And that is also why the person who avoids and distrusts the Son is in the dark and doesn't see life. All he experiences of God is darkness, and an angry darkness at that."