Wednesday, August 31, 2011

went to a meeting last nite that gave papa and i alot to think about.
reminded to PRAY more. i pray for you guys and let you know here but i wonder if praying over you, with you would be kind of weird and yet all kinds of OK. i prayed over Nehe as we walked his neighborhood but haven't done it with or over you. i will start doing this :)

emma grace...Abba this lil girl is sensitive and wise. please help her to understand where her sensitivity comes from, a loving Abba who desires her to know Him and His plan. a plan that probably won't be easily discovered, well outside of the part where we are to LOVE YOU and others, all others. the rest will be hers to discover, unleash and in that unleashing have a life of incredible risk and joy. i pray for her to become more and more centered in You, to have a vital relationship with Your Son and to hear Your Spirit in all her endeavors.

gabe christian..Papa this boy is wild and crazy, a wonderful wild and crazy. full of joy and adventure, tempered with a sensitive spirit. i pray You take him on an incredible journey of risk and lead him to love Your son and in that love he discover more adventure than his lil heart can handle.

millie hope....she of the independent nature. i pray you nurture than independence into a deep dependence on You and Your Spirit. i pray Jesus becomes her closest companion and in that closeness all her creativity be released to do things for Your kingdom.

nehemiah....fearless he is and always checking his boundaries. i pray he find YOU in those boundaries and in the freedom that offers he becomes an incredible man of God with You always guiding him. i pray in his pushing the boundaries Jesus becomes his life line so he never gets too far away in that quest.

jameson to us and known fully by You. i pray he grows up to have passions like his daddy and in those passions always knows they are born of you in him for Your glory and that he be a contagious light for You.

i pray each of these lil ones have the DNA of disciple in them and that as it manifests itself in each they find such joy and that their journeys be rich and filled with stories of You reaching others in and through them and that joy.

i pray for their parents to know You have a plan and great love for them and their children. thank you Abba for the privilege of having these in my family.

Monday, August 29, 2011

there's a verse in revelations that can kind of freak you out. freak you out if you don't know His grace, haven't wrestled w/your personal need of Christ. still can freak you out even when you know, worth wrestling with you know?
revelations 2: 23.............I x-ray every motive and make sure you get what's coming to you.
He knows us that well guys. He knows and made us and wants us to always be chasing after Him. He knows we are gonna get distracted and alot of times in the Bible tells us to 'BE alert'.......just a verse i wanted to share with you this morning. He knows you and loves you even more than papa and i......

Thursday, August 25, 2011

been reading the old prophets and finding out they didn't always HAVE good news, well it was God's news and for the GOOD but wasn't always received as good.
spent the last week w/you, Nehe and boy was it fun. you are something special like all your cousins. you are especially fearless and always looking for freedom. i love that your momma has from the very beginning fostered that in you.
when you were less than 2 months old, your wise momma would see that yearning to be free and let you slide right off of her lap, we thought she was crazy!
but God picked the perfect momma for you and now it is also her responsibility to help you find ways to BE free and fearless and successful all the while, keeping you safe, as safe as is humanly possible.
it is her and daddys job to remind you where that fearless spirit came from.
for the rest of you AMAZING kiddos, it's kind of like when mom or dad tells you to DO something, you may not receive it as good news :) and even be angry at mom and dad BUT it is for your own good, whether or not you can immediately see it.
anyway feeling kind of like old Jeremiah this morning with all this good news about how God is in charge of everything and wanting to go out and just spout off about it without waiting for Him to tell me when and then when He does, hating being the one to have to say it and yet loving it at the same time.
wanting to point people back to Him, Your Papa, His Son, encourage them to listen to the voice of His Spirit breathing inside of them. breathing advice and suggestions on how to LOVE. not mine HIS....He speaks to us you know all the time and we just need to learn to listen....
loving and hating that voice in my own heart this morning, whispering to me ' listen to them and point them back to ME'....listen to them and remind them who's in CHARGE.....somehow without being .......preachy.
i love the knowing it and wanting with all my heart you all to know it too.
He, the God of the universe is in CHARGE.....
so today i want to be obedient and soft to His leadings and not my own.
i love you all so much and praying today for YOUR lil hearts to feel His love .

Saturday, August 13, 2011

this is papa's helmet, my view on the back of the bike. i want to start by complaining that wahhh that's all i see but the truth is because of following that helmet i have seen over 1/2 of this united states! wow huh?

it's had me wondering these last few weeks, probably months and boy i hope not years what i miss by focusing on what i see instead of what is out there.

i woke up this morning with the word courage...courageous...BE of good courage.
a dictionary definition is: mental or moral strength to venture, persevere and withstand danger, fear or difficulty. I think maybe it is important for me to 'listen' today...
for someone always looking to fit and yet feeling this call to a certain's maybe about resilience (another word i woke up to) and perseverance? just seeing the helmet and maybe that's a really good thing. I SEE it's ahead of me and now to follow, trusting or at least knowing that Papa (God) is ahead of me....and behind me and with me every step of the way.
i am not saying papa is Papa...the vision of the helmet being Papa is a good metaphor for me. and maybe for you guys, to know that our God knew you before you were born and put you on the back of the bike with Him to take you where He wants you to go and boy guys and gals, my precious grands I hope you come to know this and trust it and follow /ride wherever it is He takes you. BE of good courage and seek Him always. love you more than i can say....gigi

Friday, August 12, 2011

the third plate

gigi had something happen that i want to try to tell you about.
i have been praying to hear His voice and the other day i think i did and missed it....missed being obedient to it that is.
we have had this guy trimming our trees, now in my judgementalism i was put off by how much he talked.
so monday he was here finishing up the job, cleaning up and ....just finishing. papa was due to be home and i was fixing him a fun supper, shrimp boil. i was cooking and getting ready to set the table when i heard this lil voice in my head saying 'put on a third placemat' and then when i didn't do it , heard again 'put on a third plate' know just ask the guy to dinner....
i didn't
i told myself....oh he wouldn't join us and then more honestly he probably stinks from working so hard and he talks too much and i want papa to enjoy his meal.
yuck huh
and now all i can hear in my head is 'don't miss the third plate'....His grace covered me in my shame the next morning and i want to stay forgiven for it and i am.....BUT i don't want to miss being obedient to His voice.
so now i am praying and making my i will of a morning be...I will listen and obey.
i share this so you guys when you hear His voice will maybe be more inclined to obey and in that obedience , i am confident that you will hear it more and more often.
love you all gigi

Thursday, August 11, 2011

I hope you guys read the Bible for yourselves someday.
I hope you wrestle with questions and can only go to Him and His words, not only and yet maybe it is ONLY.....I hope you find people to point you to Him and I hope you point people to Him.
I hope you find JOY in the journey amidst all sorts of crap and pain and sorrow.
I hope you have your own moment of TRUTH, I mean a real moment where what He did for you becomes real to and for you....I hope in that moment you FEEL His love, and if not that you keep moving towards Him.
I hope you know how much He loves you and that in that love you will love Him.
I hope you realize He made you special and that you find your purpose in that .
I hope you know how much I love you .

Monday, August 8, 2011

Jeremiah 1:5

Autumn and Brett Coursey are bringing their new little one into the world today albeit a bit early, 33 weeks, but this lil family is surrounded by prayers.
Papa and I walked them through Pre-marital stuff and feel a real affection for them.
Jeremiah this morning assured me our Papa in Heaven knows this baby already and now we wait and pray and hope.
You lil ones are so anticipated and we big ones sometimes forget how very special each of you is. We have in the lives we've lived learned to just expect things to go in our order and forget He has an order that is really no matter what, better. His will is best no matter what kind of things try to make us think it's not...but really how do we live this when the bad stuff, hard stuff happens?? A new lil' one coming early has the potential to be some of that hard today we wait and pray.....course we're praying it to be our way without even knowing His and you know what.....He's ok with that, He loves listening to us and maybe in all this we learn to listen to Him more? Maybe we turn to Him more, maybe in the turning to Him we hear something we've needed to hear or see something He's been waiting to show us or maybe we simply in the turning, getting closer to Him we end up wanting that...that closeness to Him? I don't know just praying this morning for sweet beginning for this lil' Coursey and for Mommy and Daddy to FEEL Him .
I hope you reading this are in the future good friends, sisters and brothers in Jesus to this new lil one....I hope and pray you all Know Him and trust Him with your lives and now I simply must live in the knowing Him myself. Love you all Gigi

Update: Boy 4 lbs 4 oz.....he's impressing everyone. Now keep praying :)

Monday, August 1, 2011

John 3

The Supernatural begs questions and i hope and pray you kiddos are steeped in an environment that inspires you to ask and that your parents are so soft and Spirit dependent themselves, that all of you live lives that being filled w/wonder and awe and gratitude..... who knows what He can do in and through you.

The Supernatural begs questions and the questions deepen our faith and dependence, rather than seperate us from Him. The best questions come after and from facing the evidence and accepting it.

I am sinful and stubborn
I am forgiven

Stubborn in that I make everything about seems normal.....when what He calls us to is supernatural, being about Him.
When I looked at is as normal it didn't seem sinful. And now coming to knowing it's all Him and seeing the light of that hurts bad and I didn't want to see it, to hurt like that..I wanted to beat myself up more than simply accept His love and a child who has disappointed their parents and doesn't know how to just BE SORRY.....if I beat myself up enough I stay in a darkness that never lets His light shine in, doesn't let my Mommy's and Daddy's disappointment and forgiveness change my behavior, I just stay feeling bad and ashamed and alone..
Accepting His forgiveness for that, the hurt is painfully good, He sent His son Jesus to die for that in me, that hurts and yet Wow, He loves us that much........and i hope it is searing my heart into seeing the Supernaturalness of His sacrifice and love forgiveness more and more everyday....keeps all of us absolutely drenched w/ His love.
I hope you guys wrestle with this in your lives and that as you lose you FEEL His love. i love you all so much

19-21"This is the crisis we're in: God-light streamed into the world, but men and women everywhere ran for the darkness. They went for the darkness because they were not really interested in pleasing God. Everyone who makes a practice of doing evil, addicted to denial and illusion, hates God-light and won't come near it, fearing a painful exposure. But anyone working and living in truth and reality welcomes God-light so the work can be seen for the God-work it is."
22-26After this conversation, Jesus went on with his disciples into the Judean countryside and relaxed with them there. He was also baptizing. At the same time, John was baptizing over at Aenon near Salim, where water was abundant. This was before John was thrown into jail. John's disciples got into an argument with the establishment Jews over the nature of baptism. They came to John and said, "Rabbi, you know the one who was with you on the other side of the Jordan? The one you authorized with your witness? Well, he's now competing with us. He's baptizing, too, and everyone's going to him instead of us."

27-29John answered, "It's not possible for a person to succeed—I'm talking about eternal success—without heaven's help. You yourselves were there when I made it public that I was not the Messiah but simply the one sent ahead of him to get things ready. The one who gets the bride is, by definition, the bridegroom. And the bridegroom's friend, his 'best man'—that's me—in place at his side where he can hear every word, is genuinely happy. How could he be jealous when he knows that the wedding is finished and the marriage is off to a good start?

29-30"That's why my cup is running over. This is the assigned moment for him to move into the center, while I slip off to the sidelines.

31-33"The One who comes from above is head and shoulders over other messengers from God. The earthborn is earthbound and speaks earth language; the heavenborn is in a league of his own. He sets out the evidence of what he saw and heard in heaven. No one wants to deal with these facts. But anyone who examines this evidence will come to stake his life on this: that God himself is the truth.

34-36"The One that God sent speaks God's words. And don't think he rations out the Spirit in bits and pieces. The Father loves the Son extravagantly. He turned everything over to him so he could give it away—a lavish distribution of gifts. That is why whoever accepts and trusts the Son gets in on everything, life complete and forever! And that is also why the person who avoids and distrusts the Son is in the dark and doesn't see life. All he experiences of God is darkness, and an angry darkness at that."