Your Gigi can sometimes be fraught with doubts and i don't always do a good job of trusting others with those doubts. My need for encouragement and control make me isolate more than is good, so if any of you have those traits or characteristics try/train very hard to overcome the pull to isolation.
I think alot of times my doubts come from comparing myself to others which probably if i could get down to the heart of it always is nothing but judging another?? I'm not sure that is always the case but worth looking at this morning and for you in your own journeys.
So this morning, I come to the Word and I hope that is a place you all will learn to love to come to as well. It's a place that He created for us, knowing us as He does. A place where what He's done and said is documented for us. You will hear many things about it as you grow. People might use it to influence you and my prayer is in that knowing it and Him for yourselves, you will be both easily influenced and turned back to Him and not influenced by people who simply want to control you and or your thinking. He made us to in Him think for ourselves. He gifted each of you with gifts, passions and talents that will grow you into the people He created you to be.
so i read this morning about Hannah and her desire for a child......children really are a blessing you know :) She prayed and bargained w/God (my interpretation) and was given a son Samuel. She in her bargain gave him (Samuel) at a young age to Eli a priest and he grew up in the temple, with Eli's sons who didn't behave very well at all......Hannah praised God for him, her prayer this morning in 1 Samuel 2 and then Psalm 66 really encouraged me this morning.
It is guys all about HIM and this morning I am thanking Him for all of YOU. That I have been allowed the awesomest privilege to be your Gigi, to pray for you, to love you. And that it is only because of Him that i have, blows me away. I am going to hang on tight to these two verses today....
1 Samuel 2:3....For God knows what's going on.
He takes the measure of everything that happens.
and Psalm 66 : 5-6
they'll take your breath away.
He converted sea to dry land;
travelers crossed the river on foot.
Now isn't that cause for a song?
7 Ever sovereign in his high tower, he keeps
his eye on the godless nations.
Rebels don't dare
raise a finger against him.
I am gonna hold on and an I will for me comes from the 2 Corinthians reading. Alot of times I am probably gonna say things that 'tick you off'....I am going to be pointing you to Him over and over and over, when I sense the Holy Spirit leading me to and when my love for you is overcome by my need for you to love me.....I am not supposed to need that you know, I am supposed to love you recklessly, well really I am supposed to love Him that way and won't be able to help myself in loving you and anyone else that way...but like I said I doubt and start to want what I want more. My hearts desire tho is to love you that way, His way and I will yield more and more to Him to help me. I will recklessly love today as YOU lead.
Anyway in pointing you to Him sometimes it's gonna hurt but it's those hurts I pray take you deeply into His . I know all this is confusing and maybe as I write here and you experience Him through Jesus yourself it will make sense....till then.....we keep trying/training to grow up in Him right??
2 Cor. 7: 8-9 I know I distressed you greatly with my letter. Although I felt awful at the time, I don't feel at all bad now that I see how it turned out. The letter upset you, but only for a while. Now I'm glad—not that you were upset, but that you were jarred into turning things around. You let the distress bring you to God, not drive you from him. The result was all gain, no loss.
10Distress that drives us to God does that. It turns us around. It gets us back in the way of salvation. We never regret that kind of pain. But those who let distress drive them away from God are full of regrets, end up on a deathbed of regrets.
11-13And now, isn't it wonderful all the ways in which this distress has goaded you closer to God? You're more alive, more concerned, more sensitive, more reverent, more human, more passionate, more responsible. Looked at from any angle, you've come out of this with purity of heart. And that is what I was hoping for in the first place when I wrote the letter. My primary concern was not for the one who did the wrong or even the one wronged, but for you—that you would realize and act upon the deep, deep ties between us before God. That's what happened—and we felt just great.